TODAY IS MY FIRST DAY AS AN ADULT =)

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Okay, no debuts nor festive celebrations for my 18th today. Just spent it at home. Hahaha, but it doesn't matter though. The most important thing is I celebrated it with my family which is my mom and dad. Ate yummy spaghetti and ice cream! I also munched lechon manok! OHYEAAAAH! And oh, gulped some shots of San Mig Lights too. >P

I'm so happy because lots of people remembered my very special day today, and that includes my cousin Kuya Iano! But there's something odd... NO ONE in my REAL-LIFE friends remembered my debut. Ouch. ;( But then, I don't give a damn anymore. I think, they're just ya know... WALANG KWENTA. ü The good thing is I still have friends (and a cousin) here who managed to greet me. That is so sweeeeeeeeet. :)

Any, I took some pics of myself for my 18th b-day today. Here are my 3 out of 12 pics while having my "pictorial" at home. My apologies if I look murdered with those three images. ;P

I made that "Legally 18" sign while I was in my room. ;D

I made that "Legally 18" while I was in my room. ;D

hmmmm....

My 18th Gratitude Message (Finale)

16. My mom, Oliva V. Xerez-Burgos...

Next in line is my mom. We have this "Tom and Jerry" lifestyle because ver since, we always argue and have different views in certain stuff. But what I had always admired with my mom is she's very self-sacrificing, loving and caring... I may have been harsh or a bit pasaway to her but you know, I'm really happy to have a mom like her. I won't be born here in this world without her so I owe my mom a lot...

Message to mom: Words are not enough to say Thank You to a wonderful mom like you. I always pray for your good health and happiness to our Lord Almighty... Mom, I rarely get verbal with my feelings to you but I wanna tell you that I'm really sorry for all the stuff I may have done in the past that had hurt you... I love you very much.

17. My dad, Rafael R. Xerez-Burgos...

After mom, I would like to thank my dad. Just like my mom, he is extremely self-sacrificing, loving and caring. Everything he does is for the sake of me and my mom. That's how he loves us dearly. Dad has also been my guide, my inspiration and best friend (aside from Lyra). He is always there to listen and understand me wwith his whole heart. He's the kindest person I had ever saw in my life... I can't even imagine a life without my dad. It'll surely by lonely coz hew always bring out the color in my life. I am not what I am today without my father's guidance to which I absolutely appreciate most with my dad ever since I was a kid.

Message to dad: I will never forget our bonding moments together. From "ears" to "pa-chleep" (pa-sleep) times... I would like to extend my gratitude greetings to the best dad of the world. I'm sorry also for all the wrong things I have done to you. Just wanna let you know that You are my dream father and I love you very much!

17. To God Almighty...

And last but not the least, I wanna thank God. He is always there to shower us life's greatest blessings. If not for him, I won't be able to see the beauty of each corner of this world and meet all the people who had been so dear to my heart like my family, friends and loved ones... Many times, I may have blamed you for all the problems that came into my life but I realized that these are just challenges I have to surpass in order to have a stronger and tighter faith in You. All of me and my family's hardships, I lift them up to You. I know you will never leave us behind hanging just like this because you are indeed, a very loving and selfless God. Again, thank you so much for everything I have here. I appreciate it so much. Praise the Lord!

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"These are the people who became special to Pia Nicole Viloria Xerez-Burgos. These creations of God always make me smile whenever I feel doomed or what. They had always reminded me to 'keep going!' despite all the mess around me.
They are my energy pill - my source of strength."

I might not have the lovely debut of my dreams and honestly speaking, I feel bad because of this... But you know what I've realized back then? It doesn't really matter if a girl would have a debut or not. IT IS NOT A REQUIREMENT THOUGH. What matters most is I was given this chance to thank all the special people in my life even by just the use of this handy dandy blog of mine. This already gives me a sense of joy and contentment in my soul...

As I bid my 17 years of age goodbye, I am now entering a new phase in my life which is Adulthood. Whatever it is that I have learned in my childhood days, I will apply it as a responsible adult of our society... That is my vow to you. I'll do my best not to fail you guys with all of my heart even if there are problems, sadness, frustrations, fears, misunderstandings and loss that might come my way. As my blog quote says, "You may see me stumble, but you will NEVER see me fall... I am strong. I am a FIGHTER."

Thank you for reading this long, long thanksgiving message of mine, my friend! I super jejemon appreciate it. :P I'll be ending this now... For the nth time, Thank you very much and may God bless us all! >:D< :-*

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Cheers for the newly-debutant of the century,
Pia Nicole Viloria Xerez-Burgos!!!

^ang weird ah, parang binabati ko ang sarili ko. =))



PS: Forgive me if you spot some typos. I'm rushing na din kasi eh. Imagine, I have to finish this a few hours before my birthday. PIZ YO. :)

My 18th Gratitude Message (Part 3)

11. My Godparents: Mr. Ricardo Xerez-Burgos Jr., Mr. Renato Xerez-Burgos, Mrs. Regina Xerez-Burgos, Mr. Alfonso Ballesca, Mrs. Lydia Villacrusis and Mr. Mari Kaimo (though he already changed his religion)

As of now, those are the only people I know who are my Godparents. But anyway, I would like to thank you coz you give what makes me happy. I absolutely appreciate it! But ya know, it's the thought that counts. Nothing more is essential than that. :)

12. My Viloria relatives...

I never had the chance to get to know you guys but I still wanna thank you because you are nice people and you always lend a hand whenever our family needs to. I can really see that Filipino attitude of kindness and hospitality in you. *hands down*

13. My Xerez-Burgos relatives...

I'm grateful to have you as my relatives. I'm always happy to bond with you, may it be simple gatherings to festive occasions. I'm really looking forward to our upcoming XB reunion this July coz I really want to meet the rest of the gang already! Haha! Rock on, XB's! Yeaaaaaaaah! B)

14. My late Grandparents- Mr. Ricardo Xerez-Burgos Sr. and Mrs. Estela Xerez-Burgos...

June 21 is not just my plain birthday but also the 3rd year death anniversary of my Bita. I'm grateful to have you as my Abuelita and Abuelito. SUPER. Though you're already in heaven, I still wanna give my heartfelt thanks to you because of all the stuff, knowledge and wisdom you gave me. You had always been one of my grandest inspiration in every aspect of my life and I totally appreciate it very much. I wanna shout out that: You are the greatest grandparents in the world!!! I love you very much! Nunca Te Olvidamos...

15. Myself...

I never expected that I'll be able to reach this far. My life is like from "loserville" to "winnerville"... Before, I thought that I was a weirdo, a freak, and yeah...a loser. I didn't believe in myself. But later that I realized, I'm not. Certainly, I'm not. I discovered that I have a potential... I discovered that I also have talents and abilities.... And I even discovered that I'm also a BORN LEADER (I experienced being the President of our school in our Student Council). Is this what you called a LOSER?? Hah! Nah.. :) I am happy and proud of myself because I'm an ACHIEVER. Well, not just an ACHIEVER in my studies but also in my personality, spirituality and life... I thank myself because I had the guts to pursue whatever dream I have in mind which lead me to a fiery Pia Nicole Viloria Xerez-Burgos- The ultimate FIGHTER.

My 18th Gratitude Message (Part 2)

6. My teentalk friends...

Yeap! I also like to thank all my online buddies. Why? Whenever I feel bad on the reality of my life, it was always THEM whom I had always run to... I had joined numerous clans and forums in the net for the past two years (like Luna and even Kissables) but it was only the TEENTALK community that is the most remarkable. A-list and Intelligentalkers (and the latest, the Bloggistas) are my all-time faves. In A-list, I met these hotties:

• Lica Fernandez, my ex-batchmate in AA/friend, who had always been there for me since we were still in Media Club when we were still in Grade 5 or Grade 6? Haha, can't remember anymore. :P

• Thea Gagalang, aka Kgands, who had always been there to listen to me and my rants. =))

• Jona Fernandez (she's not related to Lica ok? haha), aka Partyf, whom I had always share random thoughts.

• And the others: Abby, Linette, Nikki, Jhajha, Nikka, Nikka, Jha, Pierru, Steffie, Cass (who quitted just recently), thank you very much! You guys are the best!!! :D

For my Intelligentalkers family, I got...

• Janna Aika Deja, aka Clownie, super duper I love youuuu! xD Our bonding and kulitan moments are the best! Hope you won't forget me even though you're already in college. :)

• Liz, aka my Boss, thanks for being my "ate" and for everything. I will take care of your clan, so thou shall not worry... Please maging active ka na! IMYSM! >:D<

• Raven, is there anything I could ever say to you?! LOL. JK. It might sound gory but I thank you for every advice you gave me... I just want you to know that you are BI. >:P

• And the others: Telle, Marla... (can't name you one by one anymore... you know who you are!), thanks for everything! I'm happy and proud to belong in this clan ever since. :)

And these great people too: Jett, Erin, Chryselle, Alyce, Kate, Claire, Tinstar, Clang... WAAAAAH!! Like Intels, I can't name you one by one anymore. LOL. But you know who you are. I really, really appreciate your presence like crazy. You girls rock, baby! \m/

^PS: Ngayon ko lang narealize, ang haba pala nitong number na to. :))

7. My Assumption Antipolo Family...

To all the administrators, teachers, parents and to all my friends I left there, thank you so much! Though I'm no longer studying there for quite some time already, you always gave me the reason to be proud of you. The school... The people... The education you provide... all these are truly INCOMPARABLE.

I would also like to mention Mrs. Norma Aguilos, AA's Administrative Coordinator. For all the understanding and kind considerations you had given me and my family during my studying years in this good school, you made me realize that even though your'e one of the "big bosses", you have the heart to listen... I really appreciate that. Thank you very much po...

My nine-year stay in AA pastures is one hell of an experience. I even consider it IMPOSSIBLE to forget EVERYTHING I had ever experienced here since I was still in Prep. I might have encountered sad, disappointing, tough and heartbreaking times there but what matters most is these experiences lead me as the person I was just only dreaming about -- a woman of faith, a woman of action.

Well... I guess the saying's right.

“Once an Assumptionista, ALWAYS an Assumptionista”

8. My Alma Mater, SPI SYSTEMS COLLEGES family...

Tatagalugin ko na ha. :D Ako ay labis na nagpapasalamat sa inyong lahat ng aking mga naging guro, kaibigan (kahit marami din sa kanila ay mas bata at mga bata pa talaga sa akin) at kaakibat sa mga panahong nagaaral pa ako riyan. Masasabi kong ako'y nasa pinakamasayang bahagi ng aking pamumuhay noong mga panahong nagaaral pako diyan... Sana sa paglago ng paaralang ito sa taong ito at sa darating pang mga schoolyear ay hindi niyo ako makalimutan. I served the school with honor. Ako'y naging President ng Student Council noong ako'y 4th year pa at masaya kong pinagsilbihan ang school na ito kahit na unti lang ang mga mag-aaral dito. Just wanna let you know that the former rep of this school misses you so much already... I'll even miss Kangki's Corner, the whole of Lores Country Plaza and that includes Waffles, TBH, Ever Supermarket, Ministop, Jollibee, Pan de Manila, and even Mystical Dragon. :P

Masaya ako dito dahil dito natagpuan ko ang aking sarili at napatunayan na may talents at abilities akong maipagmamalaki sa aking pagkatao... Basta eto lang ang masasabi ko, "AD MAJOREM DEI GLORIAM!" *we have the same school thrust as Ateneo's, btw. :D

9. To my REAL-LIFE friends...

Ang dami niyo! Hahaha! Sorry kung hindi ko na mababanggit yung iba ha. xD I want you to know that I'm happy to have friends like you guys. I might seem weird, crazy, snob and childish but then I realized that these are my assets... That is what composes Pia Nicole in reality and I'm proud of that. *wink!* NAKS, PANG-SLAMBOOK ANG SAGOT! =)) Rosette, Racelle, Christine, Rossaine, Claudine, Reyea, Lady, Alia, Jaycelle, Aimee, Yna and a lot more... :P Sana di niyo ako makalimutan ha? Thanks ng marami!

And to my bluey-slash-bestie, Lyra, I love you so much!! Yer the best! :D Thanks for everything. I owe you a lot. Even I'm already 18, Nunca Te Olvidamos. Di kita makakalimutan EVER! You were the only one from my friends who who is "nagmamalasakit" to me, to which I boldly appreciate. Sorry for the times I've done something that might hurt your feelings. Always remember that I'm just here for you no matter what. Study hard! *super beso*

10. Ms. Amabelle M. Deloverges...

Ms. Belle's my English teacher/2nd-year adviser/Highschool Coordinator/confidant/second mom in school. She saw me laugh... Saw me cry.. Saw me at my best. And I thank you Ang dami niyo! Hahaha! Sorry kung hindi ko na mababanggit yung iba ha. xD I want you to know that I thank you for everything. You are so kind and I promise that I will never forget what you've told me during my 3-year stay in SPI. *hugs*

...to be continued.

My 18th Gratitude Message (Part 1)

I would like to grab this opportunity to thank all the people who made my life wonderful before I hit my 18 years of age. This would be a 4-part special and I hope you would finish reading this til the last post. =)

So here they are...

1. For those people who helped, supported and trusted me in every way they can...

I thank these people because they are my avid fans (feeling celebrity eh ;P) that always boosts me up whenever I feel tired or discouraged in whatever thing I do. You give me strength as always... I realized, you are even MORE effective than my regular intake of Enervon and Milo.

2. To all my mentors...

To all my mentors, tutors, teachers and instructors from past to the present times, I give you my 2-finger salute. I thank you for the patience, the time and the knowledge you imparted me. I promise to make you ALL proud of each and every achievement I could ever achieve in my life.

3. For all the boys out there who became a part of my life... *sneers*

You may find it JOLOGS or CORNY but I also thank these fellas because for once, they came into my world whether it was just a simple crush or the so-called thing, "fling" (I never really had a long-time boyfie tough. LOLSSSSSS). I won't mention names anymore and you know who you are. Haha! I hope you are all happy in your lives now and I wish you all the best!

4. For those people who dislike me...

Yes, I also thank those who dislike me. Why? Because if not for them, I am not what I am today -- a strong and fiery kind of girl. In other words, they made me become more of a FIGHTER which is one thing that I can say is one of my greatest assets... I never thought that I can still be caught standing despite all the rude comments, backstabs, bullies and even discrimination I encountered from my past. But then you know, I don't give a damn. If that's your happiness, I'm not a KJ much to stop you from that. :P You made me face and conquer my fears so I love you so much!:D As the saying goes, "If someone throws you a stone, kill them with LOVE" Very much inspiring!

5. For those people who served as my inspiration...

Inspiration had always played a big part in my whole existence coz I won't be able to accomplish my tasks without inspiration... Or rather, without THEM. My family, friends and even the great avatar such as Albert Einstein who failed a lot of times and was even considered an airhead for once. But still, he manages to stand up once again for every stumbles that came his way. He didn't mind these. He just did his stuff no matter what. And look at him now... one of the world's geniuses! BRILLIANT!


...to be continued.

EMO. TIRED. HOMESICK.

:|

OUCH.

Alam ko na kung ano ang masakit sa isang negosyante... Ang mawalan ng customer. Err. :| Daming problema sa business ngayon. Hay..

Ang mga presidentiables nung panahon pa ng eleksyon. :P

NOTE: I didn't placed other pics here coz I find it quite offensive. Yung medyo mellow lang yung ilalagay ko dito. :)


Alam kong tapos na ang eleksyon pero pag ginugunita ko ang mga taong ito, ala e natatawa nga naman ako. HAHAHAHA

Happiness! *smiley*

Saya ng umaga ko. :P After more than one month, nakaluwas na rin ako muli at nakahinga na ule ng sariwang hangin (despite the heat wave. Err.)... Here are my agendas the whole morning and a lil bit after lunch. Walkathon day!!! Hahahaha!

-went to Lady's house para sunduin siya
*Tae. Iniwan pako sa labas ng gate nila sa tindi ng sikat ng araw. RAWR.
-strolled along Cristimar Village
*I showed her our old house there and stuff
-went to Ynares Center and stayed there for a while to discuss certain things in life, my
business, school life, Faizyshit and other random things pa.
*may Job Fair dun kaya maraming tao dun
*saw Lhiezel (my classmate who got kicked out back when I was in 3rd year high)... I
really get sentimental pag nakikita ko siya or kahit siya man lang yung topic. ;( She's the
type of person that makes me feel extremely conscientious. Boohoo. The PAST, man!!! Gahd. One hell of a coincidence! ;o
*isisingit ko na din yung sinabi sakin ni Claude sa text about sa away nila nina Lady at Dariel asshole na yun? SHET. Nadamay pako. Pota. x((((((((((((((( That Lady talaga, napaka.. B.
-went to Western Union to inquire
*di pa namin kasi makita ni Lady yung JRS eh
-went to LBC to inquire
*di pa rin namin makita yung JRS eh. Buti, sinwerte na kami sa pangatlong tinanungan namin. Galing ni Ate! ;> hahaha
-JRS, baby!!! Quality service, dude!
*Ohyeah. \m/ First time kong makareceive ng calling card.
Bait talaga ni Ms. Susan. Hehe. Bango pa ng calling card niya. FTW! =))
-bought a sun sim card for my business
*I won't use it yet. Maybe I hafta wait for a lil more days pa...
-went to Mcdo to use the CR there (:P) and to buy a coke float. Yum!
*hehe kaso bitin. Dapat Monster size na lang kinuha ko eh. xD
-uwian time!!!
*grabe! ang tindi ng isang tricycle driver dun! Php35 ang singil. Lech. Mas mahal pa yun
kaysa sa Lores ha! Php30 lang dun eh.. at malayo-layo pa. Hmp. Buti nilipat ako sa isa
pang tricycle dun, atleast Php20 lang ang singil sakin.


^Yan lang naman ang adventures ko for today. :) Sorry kung kelangan ko pang isa-isahin at in-detail yung ilan ha. Hahaha, happy lng talaga. Weeeeeeeee!

FEU first day today. :(

Di ako makakapasok sa first day of college ko. Huhuhu. Di bale, may 2nd sem pa naman eh. :|

First time to talk to my best friend LIVE in my phone

From 11pm of June 6 to like, 3:30am of June 7, I talked to her about random stuff (my dad even tells me to end the convo already because mom doesn't want telebabad). LOL. I had fun talking to her and I think she does too. =)) She had been to blogging since the very first time I introduced it to her. But I really had no idea that she'll be really up to it. Hahahaha! So there... Shaaaaaaaaare. ;)

Pasukan na ata sa FEU this Monday...

*super sad face*

Ang sakit ng puson ko. UGH.

First day today. >.<

Leche, June pako nagkaron, tsk. Anyway, di na bale... Ayos na yun. Kaysa naman sa magkaron ako sa June 21 (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! WEEEEE~! hahaha). Lolsssss. Kaasar tinutubuan ako ng mga pimps tuloy. Tsk Ayoko tuloy lumabas ng bahay. =P

New layout and stuff added in my blogspot. :)

I want it simple and clean. Wat d'ya think? :>

Cute lil thoughts about LOVE for you to think of...

There are times you would choose Prince Charming, he'd take you to his castle and dance with you, but would allow you to leave when the clock strikes 12...

Sometimes, you would meet Spiderman, he'd give up his sweetest kiss and vanishes for all time...

Then you'd find Peter Pan. A guy whou would take care of you and fly with you against the winds, but then you'd notice that his heart still belongs to Wendy....





So be like Fiona, find your Shrek. Not perfext, but REAL.

--sa GM na natanggap ko. :)

NAnghihina nako...

Ayoko na ng mga kinakain ko dito... Gusto ko nang makatikim ng pizza, chocolate, KFC at masasarap na food muli. *sobs*

Please do pray for my father right now, guys...

He's very sick right now. He's very weak, having high blood pressure, having difficulty in breathing and toothache happening all at the same time. We don't have money as of now yet to bring him into the doctor coz we're on a financial crisis as of the moment.

Please guys, please do pray for him. Holy Spirit, I don't want to see anyone from my family suffering like this... Please let him be healed already as he wakes up later for his work. ;(

Yesterday was a Jaw-dropper. An Unbelievable History!

I was really ecstatic yesterday night because of all the good things that flowed unto me. Mom went to our school to settle some stuff there as regard to my schooling last SY 2009-2010. I noticed that there was a long brown envelope on top of the radio in our living room. Obviously, mom brought it home the time she was in school. It really caught my attention and the time I was about to get it, dad immediately got it and threw it in my room and said to himself or to my mom, "Hayaan mong magkulong yan sa kwarto niya pag nakita niya 'to." I didn't understand why he did and said such. I thought it was just an ordinary envelope with some school documents in there so why should I make a big fuss out of it, right? But I was wrong. It wasn't just the usual envelope with some papers inside! The moment I took a peek inside, I saw the words "UP" and "Los Baños" inside and some degree courses that branch offered. Curious, I brought out all the stuff inside (which were some papers and TWO royal-blue coated cardboard that indicates that there is something special inside) and instantly grabbed the paper I was reading with the words "UP" and "Los Baños". It was only later that I realized that it was an UPCAT Application Form for AY 2010-2011. Holy Cow! I can't believe it! I never expected this from my school!!! I was jumping for joy that time in my room and went into further reading on that form (I am this joyous because I never had the opportunity to take the UPCAT during my senior year). I texted two of my UP friends and gave me soulful advices about this. I'll consider what Jona told me that I shouldn't go for Diliman-Manila campus because the fight is pretty tough there. It was even stated in the form. She suggested that I must go for UP Los Baños as my second choice of campus aside from making UP Diliman/Manila campus as my first choice. It's also surefire way to get in to UP and she has a point. I'll take that. =) I just hope that my F137 would already be settled (and I do believe that it is settled alreadyü) because that is also one of the killer requirements in the UPCAT, aside from the form itself. I know God will help us with this...

Next is the TWO royal-blue special papers I took out from the envelope a while ago. It reads:

President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo
Award of Outstanding Achievement

It was two pieces because one is for Student Leadership ('coz I was the President of the Student Council last schoolyear) and the other one is Skills Development and Entrepreneurship. Again, I didn't expect that my school would give me this because the educational standards of our school is quite poor. To be able to receive this kind of award, you must be able a graduate of a good school, isn't it? This should be given on th day of our Commencement Exercises last March but due to some reasons that I don't know, it wasn't given to me on the day of our graduation. I'm sorry to tell this but the truth is, that's how RUBBISH the standards and administration of the people who have a position in our school. Always late and always delayed. Total crap. Anyway, better late than never.

And lastly, I was happy (and super KILIG!) because I had a chitchat @teentalk with Martin Del Rosario; one of the Candy Cuties. The teentalkers who joined the chatroom had a fancy conversation with him, including me. =P I don't find him handsome nor cute at first. He's totally NOT my type. But the time I saw him there in the chatroom (there was a live streaming ongoing), I was mesmerized by his good looks!! OMG. I automatically find him cute and charming. hahahaha! He is also the blockmate of Jona in UP, btw. LOLS. I was actually "nambabara" the moment I was in the chatroom and saying crazy stuff to him already while others are having kilig sessions with him. I won't elaborate it to you anymore one by one coz it's a wee bit long. :)) Oh wait. I'll speak in tagalog already, okay? HAHAHAHA. Medyo naaasar nako kasi hindi ako napapansin ni Martin (I don't even know that he knows that I am existing in the room) sa kinadami-dami ng teentalkers na nandun. He was already flooded by messages by them. E my day is making "layas" me na sa laptop kasi he will use it na... Tama ang timing ko! Na-enter ko yung message na yun sa oras na wala masyadong nagse-send sa kanya ng messages (maybe one or two lang pero walang kwenta naman ata yung pinagsasabi nila, hahaha)! I frankly said to him,

"martin! please greet me before i leave! pinapalayas nako sa laptop eh. :))"

Surprisingly, he wrote my name!!! SHIT. He said:

"nicole"

And I was super KILIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG TO THE BONES!!! Wahahaha! I wanna melt. xD Sabi ko nga sa dad ko, "WAAAAH! Maagang pabirthday gift na to sakin!" haha, that's how crazy and wild I get when I'm crushin' someone. Harhar.

Disconnection notice received.

Just a while ago, w receive a disconnection notice. We have an unpaid bill of P1,699.80 and the deadline's on May 28, 2010.

We're doomed. VERY MUCH DOOMED. O God, please help us... :'(

Me in Cebu? Tss...

Okay, dad's waiting for a phone call right now to confirm if he's gonna work there in Cebu already. This is a bunch of sacrifices for me. I am very close with my dad so much and then he'll go? ;( Ohwell, I think he doesn't want this thing to happen too. He's just doing this for our family's "survival" though... If I go with him, mom will, too. She can't be left alone here in Antipolo. And since the whole family's there, there is a big possibility that we might stay there for good (which I dreaded the most).

But then, I have decide. I'll stay here in Manila with mom. This is so painful-- to be away with someone you dearly love. Aw. Kapit sa patalim... KAPIT SA PATALIM. Ugh.

Dad's doomed again. I hate seeing my family like this.

We're fucked up, okay? Why o why??!

*sad face*

Tulog na lang ako nang tulog. Hay. Mas mabuti pa nga ang matulog eh. I feel refreshed. Pag gising naman, I feel depressed. :o

It feels like I'm in Dreamland right now. -________-


1 : 30 am natulog
4: 45 am - nagising
6: 00 am - bumangon na sa bed at nagnet
7: 00 am - nakaranas ng anotk sa pagnenet at nagdesisyong matulog ule
11: 12 am - nagising
12: 00 nn - lunch
12: 45 pm - sleep again
3: 15 pm - wake up


How boring naman this kind of life. Amp.

O Chopsuey, layuan mo ako...

Yan ang subject ko ngayon sa thread ko in Teentalk. You might be wondering what the fuckin' hell a chopsuey does in my life. Well... Lately, yan lang naman ang madalas kong kainin these past few weeks. No, it's not because I'm on a shitty diet... But rather, wala kaming moolah ngayon eh so kelangan gulay ang kainin. Sila mom and dad nga, ang kinakain na lang, yung mumurahing isda at kamatis... HAY. DAMNIT. Sawa na nga ako sa walang kamatayang chopsuey eh (nagmumukha na nga akong chop eh) pero hindi ko naman magawang makapagreklamo kasi maraming mga bata dyan sa buong mundo ang walang makain at namamatay na lamang sa gutom.. ;( Tsaka if I'm really hurt by our sich right now, what more sila mom and dad diba? So ayun...

Habang maiksi ang kumot, matutong mamaluktot.

Bili na po kayo ng contact lenses kooo!!

Please lang po. Bili na po kayo. :|


^Shortest post so far.

From First Honorable Mention to Seller of Contact Lenses

I am a highschool graduate now and this is really one sad, sad truth about me today....

The smarty pants that people in our school refer to is now selling almighty contact lenses online. We need the money. So, no choice but to do this even though I might look silly or dumb in this kind of thingy... Sometimes, I feel so down ad humiliated by the very fact that I'm just a tindera nowadays. Well, can't help feeling that way. I'm not bragging but you know, I believe that I am one smart fellow and because of that, I am open to possibilities, isn't it? I can be studying law, engineering, accounting, or medicine (which has always been my passion) for college because of the wit I possess yet here I am, doing this?! UGH. This hurts me a lot. It's just so painful... I wish there's a genie out there to help me. But then, I think they only exist in fairytales... No things such as that in REALITY. But I came to realize that there is nothing for me to be ashamed of. So what if I am just a tindera nowadays? The important thing though is I have a decent career...

I believe I gave my all this summer already. I applied for a job in the gym and the city hall but was initially rejected. I'm so tired doing and feeling this. So this is my only hope, contact lenses... I'll invest here and hopefully, things might get okay as before.

.I believe in HOPE. I believe in CHANGE.
I AM CHANGE (no matter what my situation is today).

Here's some aww... :)

TEACHER: How important is a period?
JUAN: Very important maam, coz when my sister missed her period,

my dad cried, my mom fainted and her bf disappeared

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Hanggang ngayon pa ba hinihintay mo pa yung taong magmamahal sayo?

Wag kang maalala, ON THE WAY NAKO. --baka dapat, on MY way. lol

^shiiiiiit. may naaalala ako dito. :P

A blessed, blessed day!

It's a blessed Sunday today, honey. I fell asleep a while ago after my yummy breakfast. And as I woke up, I went to my phone if there are messages for me. And there is! There is one quote there and it kinda struck me... in a good way. :)

The Lord hides EVERYTHING in NOTHING.

He hides a TREE in a SEED. He hides a KING in a SHEPHERD BOY. He hides a SAVIOR in a BABY.

Aren't you excited to see what HE's hiding in YOU? Be prepared for the BIG BLESSINGS that GOD will provide YOU in the coming days...

With this quote in hand, my faith in Him became stronger. Lately, I'm becoming less closer with God due to the myriad l problems . And thanks to this! I finally found my lost self. I was focusing too much in my problems that I failed to see the important things in life which is God whom I always ignored during those times... This reminds me of my all-time favorite movie, Patch Adams; specifically, the conversation of Hunter Patch Adams and Arthur Mendelson on the hands part...

Arthur Mendelson: How many fingers do you see?
Hunter Patch Adams: Four.
Arthur Mendelson: No no! Look beyond the fingers! Now tell me how many you see.

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Arthur Mendelson: You're focusing on the problem. If you focus on the problem, you can't see the solution. Never focus on the problem!

Arthur's right. Never focus on the problem. Shame on me. That's just what I did. UGH. Butthen, it's never too late too realdize things. The good part is that I still came to the peak of realizing this stuff...AGAIN.. :)

Lovin' my long hair.

I want to wear my hair like this... Even my dad told me that years back. He wants to see me always with that Rapunzel hair. :)) Though it's summer, my hair is long, black, and wavy that ends in my waist.

What I love in my hair is you can style it in any way you desire. It can be a high pony, dread locks, a french twist, you name it. Think of Barbie! *wink!* I feel so girly-girl in every time I move around and my hair flips like that. Haha! It's also a surefire way to catch the eye of the opposite sex. LOL.

What turns me on. :)

- Fair-complexioned
- Nice eyes
- Nice built
- Long-haired fellas
- at least a 5'8 height

Okay, enough of the "outside" stuff. That's only the first half. The second half goes to the invisible... What is really his attitude? Yeah, I'm very keen to a great personality out there too coz what's the ooh-la-la looks forif the core's a mess, right? TRASH. As much as possible, I want someone with a good heart or at least, the one who can make me laugh heartily. As if there's no dull moment with him.... For me, that's the bull's eye. ;)

Nicole has this sick obssession with a gay. >:)

I was tumblr-ing over a week ago and I found someone there... For me, he's one hot cutie and yeah, my type of shit. :P So I followed him. To my surprise, he followed me too. So imagine how big my smile was. hahaha! I initially grabbed the opportunity to message him (I forgot what I told him EXACTLY but I do remember myself asking him a "gender" question) right away. Gahd! I'm so damn hoping that he wasn't. :| Days passed, still no reply... Probably, he's busy or what. I dunno. Then finally, one message popped in my dashboard as I was surfing along the same site. It was him!! Holy cow. He said, "Thank you so much! And yes ma'am, I'm gaaay. :D" Okay, I can still forgive him by calling me MA'AM. But Err. Did he just confirmed about his identity???! I wish I didn't asked him that anymore.. *sigh* So look at me now, busted.

But then I still continued my stalking. :)) As a matter of fact, I added him as a friend in FB. ;) And the good news is he added me as I checked my facebook just a while ago. Yeah rock. This is the fuckin chance man, this the fuckin chance! bwahahaha! But he said in his fb profile, "Don't flirt with me. Don't flirt with me. Don't flirt with me..." so that made me have a step back. But nowaaaaaaaaay. I'm one aggressive monster. LMAO. Once I like a guy (regardless of the gender), I'll still continue beating him around. hahaha! But no worries, I'm taking it slow. ;P The time he confimed my add, I deciced to comment him so I fired, "hi there! thanks for the add! :)" And omg!! He said, "Hahaha, no problem! :D" My reply, "I saw your fb in your tumblr so I hit it. lol:))" His message back? Hmm. He's quite boring o talk to. He just said, "Hahaha, aw! Okaay. xD" What's a good reply? Hmm.. Okay, I'll be straight to the point. I'd like to be his friend. I'll tell him that. Oh God! This gives me the goosebumps. O_________o This is the first time I'm flirting with a gay. :|

Paano ko haharapin ang araw na to?

Sa tumblr ko sana ilalagay itong post na to. Kaso naisip ko, follower ko pala yung kababata niyang si Thea. So, hindi pwede. Kelangan magingat. Damnit. Any, sa mga hindi nakakaalam, ang araw na to ay mahalaga sakin dahil birthday ng lalakeng minsang naging importante sa buhay ko noong taong 2009. Si Elijah Arnold S. Garcia na sa pagkakaalam ko, ay nasa California daw ngayon. At meron na din yung girlfriend-- si Jen. I envy that girl much. Kung alam lang ni Eli... Hay. I still have feelings for him. Hindi ko lang masabi-sabi kay Thea at lalo na ke Eli kasi nga may commitment na siya kay Jen eh. Di naman ako relationship wrecker. :| Im still trying to forget him 100% though medyo nakamove-on na rin ako ke Eli months ago. Hay. Ang hirap talaga ng sich ko ngayon... Di ko alam kung itetext k siya or what (baka sakaling roaming yung sim niya).
*smug face*

For me, she has changed...

*NP: Love U - Howl, Fight the Bad Feeling - T-Max, Wish Ur My Love - T-Max*

"Change is the only permanent things in this world."

My Econ teacher was right. Change is the only constant stuff in this world. This is one sad truth about dear life... Now, I'm not quite used to what I'm seeing in her today.

Yes, she is still that bubbly, kindhearted girl but then I don't know.. Three's something fishy goin' on. She seems a bit strange with her actions nowadays. She's taking things too seriously; not just with her attitude but also of her thinking. I told her this last night and I do believe that she was really bothered by this thing I've told her.

As her best friend, I just want to be open with her. No secrets. Whatever it is that goes on with my heart, I just want to share it with her so that's what I did. I didn't have any idea that she'll react that way. Too sarcastic. :| I find this a wee bit "extreme" or OA much already. I began to think, ako pa ata ang nagkamali dahil sa sinabi ko sa kanya yung totoong saloobin kong ito. But then I realized, hindi naman. I was just sharing with her my own evaluation of her lately, right? Actually, I've noticed this thing happening ever since the start of her summer classes at a Review/Academic Center in her place. I tried to keep it from her but then, I can't take it anymore so it was only now that I spilled the beans...

Before, she's very studious and goal-oriented. Now, she's even MORE studious and even MORE goal-oriented to the extent that she said in her group message last night that if she had to choose between being the BEST STUDENT and BEST FRIEND, she said she'd rather choose being the BEST STUDENT. This had hurt me badly coz this gives me a hint... I'm not far more important, being one of her best friend, compared her studies. And I guess she's right. Her future is MORE of her priority than still pursuing this pointless friendship. >.< And maybe I should also think that way...

My studies is MORE important than having a best friend...TOO.

So, quits lang...

Yummy food, malapit na kitang malasap! ;D

Sa umaga: Pandesal, minsan pancit canton, kung sesewrtehin..hotsilog
Sa tanghali: Chopsuey, hotdog, kikiam, fishballs
Sa gabi: Ganun ule pero mas unti na nga lang

^Yan lng naman ang kadalasan naming kinakain sa bahay this week. Walang Max's, Mcdo, o karinderya ni Aling Bebang man lang.. Lahat ng yan, home-made! LOLs.



Oo, walang bahid nang pagkabongga sa mga pagkain naming ito pero masaya ako dahil masarap naman ang pagkakaluto nito ng aking mommy. Sa mga sosyalistang makakabasa man nitong post ko, malamang ang sasabihin ay, "EEEEEEWWWW!! What's that?! You eat those kind of Crap? Us here, we eat Beef Steak, Paella, Italian Style Chicken Curry, Pancakes for breakfast blahblah.." E ano naman kung yun ang kadalasan niyong kinakain?! As long as may kinakain ako, yun ang importante. Duh. Marami kaya ang namamatay sa gutom sa buong mundo.. So dapat, hindi choosy sa pagkain at kung anuman ang nakalapag sa hapag-kainan, dapat kainin..

At sa mga kapwa ko na mahirap (pero cool tulad ko :P) na mababasa ang mga uri ng mga pagkaing kinakain ko, sasabihin naman nila'y, "YEAH ROCK! Mabuhay ang mga jologs!". ;D

O, change topic..Naeexcite nako sa Sunday! Get-together ng clan namin sa father's side eh. We'll go to the house of the Ongpin's. For sure, mahaba-habang kainan na naman ito! YAHOOOOO!

Hahaha yun lang. Pasensya na at walang kwenta masyado ang post kong ito. =))

Modeling's interesting!

Mkay, don't get me wrong. I don't wanna be a model (I'm not fit for those anyway :P). I just find it interesting.. But as I was surfing along youtube, I suddenly felt a throb in my chest that makes me wanna check out..

THIS!



and this..



and lastly, this!



Hmm.. Ramp modeling's fun, isn't it? :)


That's why I'm being vain (for ages!) in front of the mirror and can't help but strut my stuff regardless of what other people might say. Who cares?! They're just jealous because I have assets that they are only wishing to have. *flips hair* And that is what you called "being a model even when you're not a model." :]

A HEART-BREAKING DAY FOR ME.

I'm not broken-hearted because of a guy...it's because of a friend. A best friend, rather...


ANG LAKI KONG TANGA.

^Yan marahil ang masasabi ko sa sarili ko ngayon. Last night kasi, my best friend and I had a misunderstanding (to tell you guys frankly, i's a long-disance friendship. She's from Bicol and I'm way up here in Antipolo. We've met sa isang text clan over a year ago). She always gives me load since last year pa (I even remember myself keeping a track record pa nga of the numerous credits she had given me before wherein I promised to pay her back but eventually, she declined the offer. Magaaway daw kami pag ginawa ko yun). Again, last night, she gave me the usual "P25.oo worth of credits has been loaded to..." so I used it to make myself 'unli'. At dahil din sa load na yan nagsimula ang conflict...

I dunno. She began to think na lang na yun lang ang habol ko sa kanya--load. So I was thinking, she thinks I'm a user... I know hindi ako ganung klaseng tao. Kahit nga mangutang ng piso, di ko kayang gawin eh. Pag ginawa ko yun, sobrang hiyang-hiya nako sa sarili ko... So, I had to defend myself that very instance. I just told her the truth and nothing but the truth. So I said, though not exactly as it is,

"Thanks sa load. Yeah, as of now, I'm relying to you for my load coz it's summer. Walang allowance eh. (btw, NEVER in my life ako humingi sa kanya ng load...kahit piso. KUSA niyang ibinibigay ito) Pero don't think na yun lang ang habol ko sayo. Hindi ako manggagamit..."

And I know myself. I'm not a user...EVER! Alam ko iba dyan, gustong malagay sa posisyon ko kasi gusto lang nila makatanggap ng load. Wag na tayo magpakaimpokrita. LAHAT naman ng tao, gusto makatanggap ng load diba. Pero iba ako. Nalulungkot ako, sa katunayan, pag nakakatanggap ng load. Kasi it gives me the notion that "may kakulangan ka sa buhay" or simply, "poor", kaya ka nga binibigyan ng load ng ibang tao... Yes, we're poor but then, hindi ako ganung klaseng tao na humihingi ng load. I always stand on my own feet kahit na hirap na hirap nako sa buhay ko. Why? Because I was not raised upthat way by my parents and I'm not that type of person talaga...AT ALL. Nagtaka nga ako eh kung bakit na lang ganun yung inisip niya. Alam kong alam niya na hindi ako ganung klaseng tao... Ang tagal na naming makaibigan (one year na) tapos ngayon lang niya basta-basta iisipin ang ganun? It's so weird... Pero pinatunayan ko talaga sa kanya na hindi ko talaga habol yung load kaya ang ginawa ko, sinauli ko ang P25 load sa kanya... Dito nagalit siya (ayaw niya kasi na sinasauli ko ang bawat load na binibigay niya sa akin eh). But then, I replied,

"...hindi na baleng magalit ka sakin. Basta wag mo lang isiping USER ako."

Ang hirap makatulog kagabi. Pero pinilit ko pa rin, though with a heavy heart. This is the first morning na nagising ako na mabigat ang loob in my Summer 2010. Then all of a sudden, her mom texted me using Lyra's (my best) phone... Naerase ko na yung ibang messages eh. Pero may dalawa pakong nasave dito, thankfully.

"Dont call me maam. Im just your friend's mother. Lyra didn't tell you anything? I told her to tell her friends immediately coz i knw that its hard to say good bye. Weeks before her tita called from the states. She wants lyra to study there and not just for vacation. Lyra is still sleeping here in the car. I guess shes tired." (11:24:06 am; 09-04-2010)

"But then i said to her its on her hands pa ren. Its her future we are talking about. I want her to be happy. And i want to thank you for being a good friend to her. She has told me many things aboout you. Especially when you give her advices. Thanks." (11:33:18am; 09-04-2010)

^^Ay, ala e. Dito na talaga ako nagbreak down!!! Nang mabasa ko to, I locked myself in my room and yeah, cried. Yep, emo time! hahaha. Di ko inexpect na may iba pa palang tao na naka-appreciate ng mga gestures ko. *smiles* For me naman kasi, that's the duty of a friend eh. Lam mo pag naging kaibigan kita, hanggang sa huli, nandyan pa rin ako anumang imperfections and issues man ang makita at marinig ko from you... It's like seeing an imperfect person PERFECTLY.

Tsaka dito naaalala ko pa yung reply ko sa mom niya:

"I see.. Im glad to hear that you appreciate my gesture. Im doin all of ths bcoz i consider Lyra as my best friend.. Again, thank you very much for tellin me ths. It's my honor to meet my friend's mom. Take care po."

At ayun, nadelete ko yung reply ng mom nya hehe yun ay dahil full inbox na daw ako, sabi ng lint*k na Nokia 3220 kong cellphone. :))

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Oh, ang bigat bigat ng loob ko kanina ah. Ngayon, mejo umokay na. Thanks to the following:

Tin and Claire, my teentalk friends. Ginawa pa nilang YM confie yung thread ko dun. =))

Thea, sa kanyang napakagandang advice (kung saan napaghalatang di ako marunong gumamit ng fb :P).

Lyra, alam mo na kung ano..hahaha! Basta, napagusapan na natin ito. :)

SOBRANG INIIIIIIT!!!!

Weather Check: 40 Degrees Celsius
^GAH!! Sobrang init nian ha! :o

Dad and I were in the terrace a while ago when suddenly, he jumped out of his seat. Ang init daw ng inuupuan nya. SOBRA. At dahil jan, may naisip na naman siyang "experiment" (LAGI naman eh. lol)... So, he got a newspaper and a magnifying glass. And ayun, make hula.. hahaha! He placed the newspaper on the chair and held the magnifying glass in his left hand, which highly concentrates the sun's rays towards the newspaper. And we were surprised on what we've saw! In a matter of seconds, nag-amoy sunog na! Tas ayun, the newspaper started to burn! Gulat si daddy eh. :)) Kasi during his childhood days raw with a certain cousin-slash-bestfriend kuno, ginagawa din nila ito BUT it takes them a minute or two para maburn yung kung anumang sinusunog nila that time. That particular moment, eh it only took like, let's say, 3-5 seconds for it to burn! As in, Ganyan na katindi ang init dito sa Pilipinas!!! Pwede ka nang makapagluto ng itlog gamit lamang ang...

1. araw
2. magnifying glass
3. dyaryo/uling/dahon at
4. yung kaldero mo, syempre.

HAHA. O diba bongga! xP Try niyo rin ito if you want! Pero para mas may thrill, wag niyo gawin ito with a newspaper or whatever it is nameron kayo dyan... Try it at the back of your hands (tignan natin kung hindi ma-2nd degree burn ang kamay mo). Hahaha just kidding! =)))))))

any, I'M SO DAMN BORED ALREADY!!! I want my summer vacay to start na... ;( I hope our Bora trip with the clan will happen na rin. AT maenroll na sana ako sa FEU sa kursong gusto ko, Medical Technology. *sigh*